The afternoon balls being rare, at least in reference to what are usually my Saturday afternoons. For starters, I have stayed at home studying art (about three hours with the bum stuck to the seat). You will say "is normal when people have exams and stuff" and I give you every reason in the world but what is in me, do not see it normal. Would normally have been studying in the morning and afternoon to go to my ball and stuff, but I felt like, really.
Incense, my favorite music background and a great cup of tea, that's normal. The strange thing has come when I've finished studying. To fetch the incense in a drawer of my desk, I said "God, this needs to be ordered but the YA", so when I finished studying, I have put it. This is also quite strange because normalente orderly disorder (which have all messed up but you know where you are looking for) is something that I dislike. When I started to take things out of drawers, I saw things I did not remember and that made me recall many things, some pleasant, some sad and others bitter. And yes, so many that all I got was ashamed and feel ridiculous XD. But sansación that I have left is a bitter taste. You can not call sorrow, bitterness.
time ago, about four years, I made a promise to my best friend back then. We could spend hours talking, laughing, making plans, many things together, even going to different colleges. We promised that even if we groom and whatever happened our friendship would be most important. At the time she left her boyfriend and started dating another guy and every time he saw less and less, to the point where for over a year and a half did not know anything about it until I got an email from her boyfriend giving me thanks for insisting on contact with her. That will be about two years or so.
Due to a series of personal and family problems was very depressed and did not feel like anything too. I do not blame at all, but I think if we really were such good friends could have had confidence enough in me to ask for help the way out. That hurt when I heard what happened, but not the blame. Since then I've seen about four or five times. Help her again when she returned to have problems, as I thought it was my duty and not to her, but at myself for the friendship he had with her. Things returned to normal and like the first time, when everything went back to do well, and it disappeared again if I have not heard from again more of it.
When I saw the pictures I have with her, I am left with a very bitter taste, I felt sad and used, really. Life goes on and each one gets its way. I keep mine, but I decided to totally try to trace your own, it's over. If I see her, I will not fail to say hello or anything like that but if she wants something, you have to come looking for me because I had enough to go back and think they should now focus on other things, like learning to trust others people in the same way I came to trust her.
simplmente Now I'm looking for any programs you want to try, I'll get to play or do anything while I wait, as if nothing had happened, because after this billet I do not feel anything special.
A rare evening balls.
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