the same nightmare again, the same dark agony that grips my mind one night every few. Always awake in a sweat, trying to catch his breath, as the spring flowing down my cheeks are closed forever. I keep telling myself that it's a dream, that your injuries were not fatal, that within a few hours I will see you, you're not going to disappear ... Do not know how to distinguish what surrounds me without your light, Byakuya Kuchiki. Captain.
Although it back to sleep, I wake up tired and weak, but try to My Captain does not realize and carry out my job as best as possible. A cold shower to clear my head and heading to the headquarters of our squad. Cadets train, organize people to do things properly ... The tasks of every day, nothing unusual. Do not see it anywhere and although I try to focus on my work, my eyes end up looking for you with hidden despair. Training is almost over and at last we honor your magnificent presence. Aviva the minds of the cadets and their efforts. Everyone wants to be as strong and bright like you. Dogs are so naive as to try to reach the moon with his barking, so naive as I was. Alcatraz will never be possible. Always on top, bright and calm but also distant. I keep asking myself every day if you feel lonely up there. Finally
direct your eyes toward me, making a silent and urgent call that I go away on its own will, but by the way your eyes I wish I were not so cold. Our conversation is a copy of which kept the previous day. How has the training, news, highlights a cadet ... A comfortable and orderly routine, easy to follow.
Although everything is very quiet lately there is always a mountain of paperwork on your desk, no matter you're done with all the previous day. Without a word, I go behind you, close the door and prepare tea. However lieutenant who is, is all I can do for you. On leaving the glass on the table, your slender fingers rubbing my hand to try to catch it immediately. I try to retire as quickly as possible without losing his composure, giving as an excuse to watch the new charge of black butterflies. I spend a cold stare as an authorization and return the view.
I take the longer route to my destination while recalling the softness of your fingers and warmth, a touch of that I think I deserve in a million years. Upon arrival, I can see that the cadets have bundled good. At least I can stop thinking about you while helping to make the butterflies in their cages. I do not know how much time has passed, but it is past noon. A quick anger and return to the office. When opening the meeting Purete me with a wonderful view: you lie peacefully asleep in his chair of office, with parted lips and a sweet and peaceful expression that no one would believe you. The first thing I do is find a lame blanket to cold, which means even closer to you, with your lips that sinful tempting fruit of Eden. I thank God because you have opened my eyes, reminding me of my place.
"I regret having awakened, Kuchiki-Taicho. I did not want to get sick."
The words come out with order and ease, because I have fear of you guess what I think, as I try to make your eyes are not with mine, because I have fear that you can see the soul that hide behind them.
"Thank you, Abarai."
my imagination may have played a trick but I swear that for a moment, I've seen you smile. Back to work leaving the blanket on your lap, impasibe attitude.
"I will need you to stay here to help me organize some documents. You only need to check the names on the volumes of the right shelf." You
it again ... You're back in my eyes reading the words that were left out.
"At your orders, Kuchiki-Taicho."
We spent the remainder of the morning and all afternoon, including books, names and dates. I am exhausted and my head hurts, and yet you're fresh as a daisy. Probably any other captain would be mentally dead.
"I bring my supper, Captain?"
We have finished the job and I do not want to part with you. I want us together for something that has nothing to do with being shinigami. Nod and go flying about the room towards the kitchen. I do not pay attention to what is real is on the menu. I just want to run again to meet you. At least this time you were not asleep. Could not resist returning to kiss your lips, though I expected the next instant death. We eat in silence, alone. Nor do I strive to take any subject, know how much you appreciate the silence and calm.
When finished, we were only us and the silence. Your eyes meet again to mine to let me surprise you again ...
"I'm going to the spa ... you come Abarai?"
I can only nod and went meekly your will. You aura of command and she will continue to hell. It is later than thought. You do not see a soul on the road. In the bathrooms try to hurry to undress and do not look at you. My mind is already very upset and my body desirous of yours.
"I hope in the water, Captain."
Hot water from the spa leaves a pleasant sensation on my skin, relaxing my senses, but that calm was suddenly vanishes from the steam. The image of your body, almost naked, advancing right at me, takes the little peace he could stay in my mind. You're like a vision of heaven that brings me to a hell of temptations I try to escape. Snow-white skin, combined with a peaceful look on your face now that you have closed your eyes, it gives an aura of innocence and helplessness that I would like to hold you, protect you in my arms. I try to get those thoughts shaking my head, trying to get the embarrassment caused by these images disappear from my face, but I can not. I immerse myself completely in the water, letting my hair is back to the exit. At least I'll have an excuse if you ask for my cheeks.
"Abarai ..."
The echo of your voice behind me out of my thoughts, making me turn too fast. I'm going to fall, but a hand firmly holding my waist and over my wrist. Your eyes ... This pair of dark orbs have found mine, scrutinizing what lies beyond them. I feel a strange and pleasant excitement in the chest at the same time a terrible fear to discover what I feel but I can not look away.
"'re like an open book, Abarai ..."
Your words leave me white, but pose your lips on mine my breath away. Soft and almost shy first, hungry and almost luxurious after ... I can only match your kissing, hugging. If you are a dream, I make sure to record in my mind every moment, but by separating our lips, I realize that you're real ... Smiling again just as he had thought to see before. To reflect on what is happening I separate of you ... Someone like you should not be mixed with a dog Rukongai.
Captain me ... you should not go with someone like me y. .. "
Your arms around me from behind do to stop speaking.
"Listen once Abarai ... You're the only person that I look just like a Kuchiki, a captain, a nobleman or an enemy ... Do not pretend to surrender and thus the only eyes that looking for who I am, not what am I or my name. "
could die right now, because I heard the gates of heaven open for me but I know I'm not worthy of this magnificent home. I know my smile is sad and am thankful that you can not see, as I have you not face to face, because I could not tell you how I feel.
"But ... what is special about the Rukongai a dog for someone so bright and pure? Do not understand ..."
admit that your side I'm just a dog is dragging my pride in the mud, which you know you would never do to anyone. I feel like you hugged falls apart, with some relief for me, but it is short to me flipped through your arms to return to the prison of your eyes, which I indefenso.Tu expression again be serious, but not so cold. With a final effort to hide it under my face of your light, for re-lighting when it gains on the chin.
"Let me be your love then I will show you what is so special Rukongai my dog \u200b\u200b..."
Your hungry mouth to mine again in search of new livelihoods, finding what they want and giving it to mine for so long thought to have banned and out of my reach. Hug you against me, to make sure you're real, while your hands roam my back and your lips begin a tour of my neck, raising my anxiety for you, growing every touch and every kiss.
"Come with me, Renji."
In order for your lips, answered with a kiss on your neck. I know what you expect from me and where you take me happy and accept your mandate. So do the dogs on their owners. We dressed quickly and in a blink of an eye we are already in your house, being greeted by your steward, who give orders to anyone near your quarters for the importance of issues to deal with your lieutenant. You sound so distant and cold as if time had go back and be a few hours ago.
In your room back to your new being, divesting myself forward as your lips do not make it a pleasure to move my neck and then my whole body, accompanied by your hands, pulling moans from my throat, delivered care to be delivered to your lust and pleasure ...
I wake up in a room I do not know at first, but then I remember, to see you at my side. I can not help blush to remember everything we did last night, how many times I made you, how many times my seed raced through your lips and yours and mine ... Few words of love out into the world and the delusions of the flesh. I try to calm down a bit, watching you sleep peacefully, smiling, laughing sleep yesterday. At the end of the day was just a nightmare, something far from reality. End
PS: I know ... Lately I write muyyyy little, but the muse is not passed by here very often, for many Lacasitos that puts you at the altar: P
